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Am I an Addict? A Day in the Life

[vc_row][vc_column width=”1/2″][vc_custom_heading text=”Am I an Addict?” use_theme_fonts=”yes”][vc_column_text]I think this is quite the loaded questions, am I an addict? I want to say if you must ask, you know the answer, but I also recall asking the same question when I was still in denial about my addiction. The truth is I think there are so many things that go into making someone an “addict” its not just about the drugs or the alcohol, it has to do with the behaviors you were using well before you found that drink or drug. I believe that there are some indicators in life that may point to you being an “addict” even before the drugs enter your body. Some of these might be trauma, low self-esteem, anxiety, other people in your family suffer from addiction, your friends use drugs or drink excessively, selfish, you lie to make yourself look better, you care more about what others say about you then the truth, always looking for a quick solution, the list could go on and on. Does it mean you are an addict if you have one or more of these qualifying traits? Not 100%.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][vc_column width=”1/2″][vc_single_image image=”1846″ img_size=”full” add_caption=”yes” alignment=”center” el_class=”resp-img”][/vc_column][vc_column][vc_column_text]But hind sight is also twenty-twenty so if you have all these attributes and ten years from now are like “oh wow I totally was always an addict,” don’t say I didn’t warn you. The truth is we never know until we know and once you know you will never not know. Once you realize you are an addict and surrender life gets easier, because you literally have a guide of instructions explaining how to live your life to be a better person. But, if you grapple with the question to long and think am I or am I not, you could end up part of the 70,000 people who are overdosing each year.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_separator][vc_custom_heading text=”Before I was Using Drugs” use_theme_fonts=”yes”][vc_column_text]Before I did drugs, I was an addict. When I look back at the behaviors I displayed as a child I wonder why my parents didn’t throw me into rehab when I was like 13. My thinking has always been black and white, I am either great or awful, and that has played into my addictive personality, whether it was school, exercise/sports, friendships, I was all in or no in. I remember on MTV binge watching shows throughout the night because I became obsessed with it and needed to watch it all. Even some of my impulsive and dangerous behaviors, it was like once I did something once, I wanted to do it again and again, until I couldn’t get away with it again. Then I would get in trouble, and attempt to manipulate my family or friends, because I believed that now they hated me. It wasn’t like they were mad, or upset, I knew they hated me, and I would say anything to not be hated, even lie, or throw someone else under the bus. I don’t know how many times I ruined a friendship with one person to keep a friendship with someone else or told my parents something bad about a friend or sibling, so they would not be as upset with me. Right before I did drugs, I had never done hard drugs, besides the anti-anxiety medication I was prescribed, because I feared them. I knew I shouldn’t do them, I knew I had a problem with “over-doing things.” Over doing diets, over doing shopping, over doing anything that made me feel okay. I knew in the back of my head that I would get addicted to drugs if I did them and I told all the people I was hanging out with in college that I really shouldn’t do drugs. I gave them all the reasons doing drugs are bad, I told them had heart problems and might die if I did drugs. I knew that all my friends were addicted to these drugs and it ruined parts of their lives, I knew that if my parents ever found out I would lose the amazing life I had, and I knew I wanted to graduate college and become a writer for the New York Times and they probably drug tested. I said this all out loud. I said, “If I do this coke its over.” Everyone laughed. I laughed. I did the coke. Who does that?! Who in their right mind makes that decision when they know all this information. An addict. I was an addict before I did that coke. I was an addict. But I didn’t see it, I joked about it, but I didn’t believe it.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_single_image image=”1705″ img_size=”full” add_caption=”yes” alignment=”center” el_class=”resp-img”][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_custom_heading text=”When I was Doing Drugs” use_theme_fonts=”yes”][vc_column_text]It was not that bad at first, and I am sure everyone says that, but it wasn’t. I was a junior in college. I was doing okay, yeah, my grades slipped a little, but it wasn’t that serious because I was still doing fine. I even went to Italy and studied abroad when I was first getting high. I got high in Italy too. Literally everything seemed super fun and I thought my life was cool, and if you said otherwise I’d cut you off and say “I don’t need fake friends. So toxic.” I was doing a lot of cocaine, it seemed normal, my friends were all doing it, and I am sure a lot of people say “everyone’s doing it” when its really just them alone in there bedroom peaking out the blinds every five minutes, but really all my friends were doing it. We’d get high and just talk about the most random things, from politics to conspiracy theories to childhood trauma, nothing was off the table. Plus, I wasn’t selling any of my stuff (yet) and I wasn’t doing any crazy hustle for cash for my drugs (yet!!!), so I truly felt like life was fine. I had done Oxy pills here and there. But it was not something I did a lot at first because it was not as social as doing coke on the weekends (or everyday) with your friends. I remember hating my friend that did Oxy all the time and arguing about it. I didn’t understand why you’d want to do a drug that just made you go to sleep. When I first started doing the oxy pills more, it was weird, just me and my two friends just smoking pills off tin foil, laughing about how bad it was for you and sitting on a couch watching Drugs Inc. I don’t know why I went from uppers to downers, probably just because I wanted to be like all of my friends. When junior year of college ended, I was somehow addicted to oxy, and I didn’t have somewhere to get them from back home, so every two days I had to go up to northern New Jersey with a friend and get them, until suddenly there was no oxy. I didn’t even think twice, I just did heroin. And that is when everything began to collapse. That is when every other drug offered to me seemed like “yeah whatever I’ll try anything.” I told crazy lies to my parents like, my boyfriend was in this IOP rehab, so they wouldn’t question if he was doing drugs or not and they would not ask so many questions about why he didn’t come to our house. I lied to my boyfriend’s mom when she was crying after finding needles in his room. I was like “oh no I thought he was clean,” I even let her cry on my shoulder. I even convinced her to get him on suboxone and gave her all this research on harm reduction, how it was safer than cold turkey, but I wasn’t concerned about him or her, I was only concerned with myself and knew if he had suboxone I wouldn’t ever have to worry about going through withdrawal. I didn’t care if he was sober or not, it was all about me.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_single_image image=”1844″ img_size=”full” add_caption=”yes” alignment=”center” el_class=”resp-img”][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_custom_heading text=”When I Knew ” use_theme_fonts=”yes”][vc_column_text]School started back up and something about being in Long Island made my addiction louder. Maybe it was because I had easier access to drugs. My grades were in the trash, I barely went to class, I was only spending time with people that were also getting high. I opened credit cards and overdrew my accounts, I would find and lose jobs within a month or two, I’d call my parents every week asking for extra money, I even sold people pills for double what they cost on the street, so I’d have enough money to get high. I was an addict. There was no more questioning it. But I continued living this life and using people and drugs from fall to spring semester. Two weeks before graduation. I remember like it was yesterday. I was driving a friend to the hospital, and I kept calling the credit card company to see if I could get more cash back, since I had hit my limit. They said no, and I was panicking. My friend started arguing with me about how I needed to figure out money. And something hit me. I was like “Oh my god, I need help.” I needed to call my parents and get help. I thought for maybe a split second “I can’t do this” but for some reason I was already punching my moms’ number into my phone. I don’t think I was on the phone for more than five minutes, I just told her “I’m addicted to heroin I need help I’m coming home.” If you have ever driven from Long Island to New Jersey, you know how bad traffic can be. Well it was rush hour and I was just sitting in my car thinking about what a mess I made. I thought about turning around and going back to school at least 100 times. I started googling addiction treatment center, and calling these random numbers asking them about insurance and programming. I had no idea what I was doing. When I got home, my mom looked devastated. This is the tape I played back over and over whenever I thought about giving up.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column width=”1/2″][vc_custom_heading text=”When I Knew I was in the Right Place” use_theme_fonts=”yes”][vc_column_text]When I began my recovery journey, I knew I was an addict, but I wasn’t sure if recovery was for me. When I met other people in recovery, who were just like me, is when I knew I was in the right place. Suddenly I felt like others understood me, I didn’t feel judged or weird, and people were nice and wanted to help me even thought I had nothing to offer them. I made a lot of mistakes, and these people still wanted to be around me, they didn’t just leave me. I was confused, but I was happy. They taught me about helping people and being honest and using my voice. I knew now that I was an addict, and that it didn’t make me a bad person. I was okay with being an addict in recovery, it was the best choice I had ever made. Making the choice to get help seems really scary to a lot of people, but it is the most important step you take in recovery. It could very well be the step that saves your life. Waiting and thinking you will suddenly not be an addict doesn’t work. Get help for you or a loved one now, stop waiting, stop questioning “Am I an Addict?” Let go, and lets chat now.[/vc_column_text][/vc_column][vc_column width=”1/2″][vc_single_image image=”1845″ img_size=”full” add_caption=”yes” alignment=”center” el_class=”resp-img”][/vc_column][/vc_row]


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As we continue to grow Amatus Health, the need to stay competitive and differentiate ourselves in unique ways is crucial. Building creative approaches to reach more people will take our company to new heights. This is why I am pleased to announce that we are officially rebranding. Our new national name, TruHealing Addiction & Mental Health Treatment, will eventually replace Amatus Recovery Centers.

You may be asking, “Why are we doing this?” This new name will give us national uniformity and help brand ourselves as a whole, which will be done in phases. You will still see our existing facility names co-branded with TruHealing for the time being.

Healing is what we do. Everyone who comes through our doors is in a moment of profound struggle in their lives. We support them through a life-changing process of healing and recovery, and they leave our facilities changed. This new name is a representation of that process. As mentioned above, it also allows us to have a national brand, which will make us a recognizable name in the addiction and mental health field.

In summation, these changes present an excellent opportunity for our organization to develop our mission, vision, and purpose. I look forward to prosperous growth as we head in a new and positive direction.


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Mark Gold
Amatus Health

Dr. Adam Cusner, PhD is an organizational psychologist by training and has brought his decade-plus experience to the healthcare field serving as the Executive Vice President of Operations for a 22-facility portfolio of skilled nursing facilities, assisted living and independent living centers across Ohio and Arizona, with an annual revenue over $250MM. While serving in this position, Dr. Cusner brought accelerated growth to these facilities, while increasing employee retention and workflow optimization. Dr. Cusner has a proven track record in the healthcare industry of providing successful leadership through his financial acumen, strategic planning, interpersonal skills, along with his ability to build strong, effective teams.


Dr. Cusner’s credentials include a Philosophy Doctorate in Organizational Psychology (PhD) from Cleveland State University, a Master of Arts in Psychology (MA) from Boston College with an emphasis on Psychology of Work, a Bachelor of Science in Psychology (BS) from Boston University with an emphasis in Organizational Behavior in Business and is a board-certified Nursing Home Administrator (LNHA). He has published and presented research articles in the field of organizational psychology at national healthcare conferences. Dr. Cusner is completing a book on organizational psychology in the healthcare field, which is expected to be published late early summer 2022. He is also a member of the American Psychological Association (APA), has served as the APA’s Division 17 communications chair, is a member of the Society for Industrial Organizational Psychologists (SIOP), and was selected as a professional reviewer for national conference research presentations.


Dr. Cusner is an advocate for his employees and is drawn to the tie between culture and quality. His extensive strategic and operational skills have delivered a high degree of success across all department levels. Dr. Cusner facilitated the establishment of an in-house financial team to provide billing and collections, accounts payable, vendor management, along with financial reporting. This provided $1.5MM annualized savings. Further, he developed department efficiencies for: Medical Staff recruitment, service-line growth, quality and safety, corporate accountability of budgetary expectations balanced with direct reporting to investor groups.


Dr. Cusner coordinated the financial turnaround of a 300 bed CCRC (skilled nursing, assisted living and an independent living center) in Arizona, which has been epitomized as the most financially challenging state to manage CCRC facilities. Dr. Cusner also strengthened the business growth of the Ohio facilities by 12%. He was recognized by the Governor for demonstrating a “care-conscious approach” during COVID, when Dr. Cusner carefully consolidated facility residents to accommodate staff and improve clinical care. Dr. Cusner demonstrates a results-driven culture by delivering a high-quality level of care and employee engagement.

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Yaffa Atias is the Director of Special Projects at Amatus Health. Atias is a leadership professional with a decade of experience in healthcare. She holds a BA in interdisciplinary studies from Thomas Edison State College, and a Master’s in Healthcare Management with a concentration in project management from Stevenson University. She completed her graduate capstone at Mosaic Community Services, now an affiliate of Sheppard Pratt.


In her role at Amatus, Atias leads and manages interdisciplinary team projects, creates solutions for any operational gaps, and continually strives for quality improvement in all processes. Atias led the organization’s COVID-19 preparedness strategy, resulting in all facilities remaining operational, and in 600 employees being retained as staff without resigning out of fear. In her role so far, she implemented licensure for three new states.


Atias believes Amatus Health and TruHealing stand out because every employee, from corporate to center staff, has a real passion for helping people. Atias shares this passion, “My natural compass always tugged me to behavioral health. I’ve always been fascinated by the human psyche. I have also been intimately privy to those suffering from mental illness and substance use. I later understood that my experiences weren’t unique, and quickly realized how pressing the need really is to effectively prevent and address. Moreover, how life-changing proper intervention truly is.”


Atias was born in Los Angeles, California and grew up in Israel and Maryland.

Melissa McCarthy is the Vice President of Business Development at Amatus Health. With a decade of experience in the behavioral healthcare and addiction treatment industry, McCarthy is passionate about recovery. She has her finger on the pulse of marketing trends, with the end goal of helping businesses grow so they can serve more people in need.


McCarthy has worked at large enterprise recovery centers across the country spearheading business development teams. She has a wide range of experience, including transforming a third-party digital marketing and client acquisition services company into a full-continuum behavioral healthcare provider, managing several successful rebrands, and growing annual revenue fivefold.


As VP of Business Development, McCarthy leads a team of over 20 business development professionals nationwide. She manages client acquisition, coordinates in-service trainings with various referents and hospitals, and presents at conferences on addiction and mental health disorder treatment.


“Sadly, many individuals die waiting for access to life-saving behavioral healthcare services,” says McCarthy. “I am in relentless pursuit of better—better access, better care delivery and better outcomes. I consider it a privilege to work in an environment where miracles unfold daily.”


McCarthy lives in Maryland with her daughter.

Hometown: Saugus, MA


Passions & interests: The greatest passion of mine is being able to dig into the work with men in early recovery. There is nothing better than witnessing and being a part of the change. My journey in long-term recovery has taught me to value the little things in life that I am now able to do. I love to do anything that allows me to be present with my wife, family, and friends. My wife and I enjoy traveling, trying new foods, and taking long motorcycle rides with our friends. If I am not on the road working or with my wife, I am studying or playing softball.


The best part of my job is being able to show up for my team and clients; they all mean the world to me. I get to brainstorm and strategize with tons of different personalities. A lot of the team does not know, but I love learning from them. If I am not learning something about our industry or workplace, I am certainly learning how to effectively collaborate with different types of individuals.


Together, we can change the narrative and be a part of the solution to better treat those trapped in the problem.

Allison was born in Columbus, Ohio and was raised in South Florida. She graduated from the University of Florida’s College of Journalism and Communications. After college, Allison started working at the largest talent agency in the world, William Morris Endeavor. There, she learned marketing from top leaders specializing in global PR and endorsement campaigns, in both the Latin and English markets.


Through strategic public relations and creative campaign concepts, Allison has secured more than 200 national broadcast and print media placements for behavioral healthcare organizations. She brings over 15 years of marketing and PR experience, with a strong background in leading communications strategy for addiction treatment and behavioral healthcare facilities. In her role as VP of Communications, she oversees branding, public relations, social media, marketing, events, and content creation.


In her spare time, she loves cooking, boating, yoga, and traveling. She and her husband Bryan reside in Boca Raton, Florida.

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Avi Burstein is VP of Clinical Services at Amatus Health. He manages all therapeutic programming at all facilities nationwide.


Avi is originally from New York, and graduated from Ferkauf Graduate School of Psychology. He brings over 13 years of experience in the Behavioral Healthcare Industry, in both the public and private sectors. He is passionate about therapeutic communities and the fellowship they foster between patients. Through his work in LGBTQIA, urban, rural, and religiously observant populations, Avi recognizes that each patient is unique. Therefore, he strives to ensure clinical approaches, staffing, administration, and education meet the expectation of each community Amatus Health serves.


“Our work must also include ending the societal stigma surrounding such conditions by building safe and supportive networks that include clients’ families whenever possible,” Avi said. “By valuing change and owning imperfections, we can strive to be better providers and walk through the door of recovery with our clients.”

Avi Burstein is VP of Clinical Services at Amatus Health. He manages all therapeutic programming at all facilities nationwide.


Avi is originally from New York, and graduated from Ferkauf Graduate School of Psychology. He brings over 13 years of experience in the Behavioral Healthcare Industry, in both the public and private sectors. He is passionate about therapeutic communities and the fellowship they foster between patients. Through his work in LGBTQIA, urban, rural, and religiously observant populations, Avi recognizes that each patient is unique. Therefore, he strives to ensure clinical approaches, staffing, administration, and education meet the expectation of each community Amatus Health serves.


“Our work must also include ending the societal stigma surrounding such conditions by building safe and supportive networks that include clients’ families whenever possible,” Avi said. “By valuing change and owning imperfections, we can strive to be better providers and walk through the door of recovery with our clients.”

Marty Markovits is the Chief Information Officer at TruHealing. He oversees the people, processes, and technologies of the whole organization to ensure the business is running smoothly.


Markovits grew up in Brooklyn, NY (which he calls “the greatest city on Earth”) and graduated with a degree in Clinical Psychology from Queens College.


Markovits is a veteran in Information Technology within the healthcare field. He ensures that IT processes are simple, cost-effective, and secure. His expertise spans the entire healthcare domain, from billing and claims, to clinical, to Human Resources. He says, “My passion is to provide fully automated and operationally meaningful Business Intelligence analytics, with absolute data integrity.”

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Hometown: Savannah, GA


Passions & Interests: I spend my time outside of work with my wife and children and am actively involved in various community needs and causes.


The best part of my job is knowing that we are creating a safe, healthy, nonjudgmental environment where people can come and better their lives. There is nothing more satisfying than helping others learn to live again and piece their lives back together as they become strong, productive members of society.

Together, we can bring families back together and promote healing and well-being.


With over 16 years of proven executive leadership and driving company growth, Mark Gold’s momentum for success isn’t slowing down anytime soon. He serves as the CEO of Amatus Health, one of the fastest-growing, behavioral healthcare organizations in the country.

Possessing an excellent handling of clinical compliance and high performance standards, Mark established 14 CARF/JCT accredited addiction and mental health treatment centers and three ancillary healthcare businesses. Mark’s natural leadership skills as well as his creative thought process to generate new revenue strategies make him one of the most sought-after professionals in healthcare. Mark has a track record of leading organizations to outstanding ROI on overall portfolio performance. In addition, his expertise includes workforce planning, growth revenue, high client and investor satisfaction.

Aside from daily business oversight, Mark invests in his staff and helps build their professional development. His commitment to his colleagues and employees toward advancement and inclusiveness helps them achieve goals, builds connections, and provides a competitive advantage in the healthcare field.

Corporate and Charitable Leadership

Mark has been instrumental in building healthy communities and providing access and quality healthcare to underserved populations. His service in the community is a testament to his passion and selfless dedication to the cause of eradicating addictive disorders and stigma.

He launched several prevention and education programs and created the first-ever “Social Justice” scholarship fund of over $750,000.00 to help communities of color into inpatient drug treatment. Mark says, “The best part of my role is the knowledge that what we do impacts countless lives, with far-reaching effects,” he said. “It is incredibly rewarding to be part of a team that guides individuals onto a safe and accessible path to healing and recovery.”

He is a board member of Ahavas Chaim, a non-profit that offers at-risk teenagers crisis intervention and mental health support. He is also a committee member of the organizations Bonei Olam and Chai Lifeline Mid-Atlantic.

Personal and Educational Background

Mark studied Talmudic Law at Yeshiva’s Mir Yerushalayim in Israel. In Mark’s free time, he loves snowboarding, boating, and spending time with his wife and children.